One afternoon I wanted to go to the movies, so I chose a movie and went by myself. There weren't very many in the auditorium, I think around 4 or 5 people, so I got a pretty good seat right in the middle. The movie was very entertaining and I enjoyed it very much. After it was over I went to a friends office to visit for a minute then headed home. The next morning I was placing an order on line for some business cards when I realized my wallet was no where to be found.
I stood in the middle of my house and said, "Lord you know where it is, show me where it is." I waited for a minute then asked, "Is it in the house somewhere?" And I had a clear "knowing" that it wasn't in the house. So I retraced my steps, and sure enough, it had to be on the floor where I was sitting at the movies.
As I was thinking about what I was going to need to do if I didn't find it, I didn't fall into doubt and fear. I didn't question God and ask Him why this happened. I just said, "Well, let me make a list of all that I had in my wallet and will have to call and cancel my cards, order a new drivers license, etc. Sure, I was going to be inconvenienced for a few days but nothing we couldn't handle together, as I was talking with the Lord.
Since that was the only place it could be I decided to call the theater. Of course, when you call a theater any more, you get a voice mail system that doesn't give you any specific information about the theater. I stayed in peace during this time, and this was truly a miracle because in the past I would fall to pieces and be so upset. But I I had a peace that passed all understanding. I couldn't even make myself be worried, it was awesome! So since I couldn't get a hold of anyone I decided to go over to the theater. It wasn't opened yet but there were workers in there. I knocked on the window and they let me in. I told them I lost my wallet in the theater yesterday and they said go ahead and take a look.
I went straight to the place where I sat, and lo-and-behold, it was on the floor, just like I had visioned it would be. Yes, I actually had a vision of going to the theater and finding it on the floor, and that's exactly what happened.
Now tell me God isn't good. I completely put my trust in Him, didn't go into fear and unbelief, but I stayed in God's love and believed. Regardless of the outcome, which thanks be to God I found it, I was going to remain true to Him.
I also know of individuals, as I myself was one at one time, that when something like this would happen we would begin to question God saying, "But God, I'm doing so much for you, why are you letting this happen." I find in those cases, things would be rough for a while because I didn't have peace! We aren't to connect our "good works" with things that happen around us. Things just happen, regardless of what we are doing for God. But the cool part is, if you get a revelation on His love, no matter what happens you will sail through it without a mark left on you. Why? Because Jesus said, Galatians 6:17: "From henceforth let no man (or circumstance) bother me for I bear in my body the marks of the Lord Jesus." It doesn't mean we are going to be beaten like Jesus was, it means that when we are "In" Christ, He paid for everything. When we are "In" Christ, we won't fall to pieces.
I know for a fact if I would have complained and accused God of not being good to me, I wouldn't have found my wallet and would have had to go through the process of getting all those cards handled. But I held onto the Lord, and no matter what, I decided to stay "In" Christ, and because of that I remained "In" peace through this ordeal.
Breaking the Barrier
Something happened to me recently that brought me even higher in the things of God. I mean, I feel more free. It seems every day, no matter how free I become, I still become freer. It's an awesome place to be, that is for sure. So let me share with you this experience to hopefully encourage you.
One morning I was about ready to get out of bed but I just wasn't feeling very well. I began naming off all my aches and pains, things that were going on in my life, situations that I had to face, work I needed to complete, and it was overwhelming. I didn't want to get out of bed feeling like that because that is bondage. So I prayed, "Father, I'm confessing all these things to you (and I named them off) and will believe that by Jesus' stripes I am healed. I remove my own expectations, I remove my own abilities and limitations off my life and reach out to the higher places with you. I cannot live this life alone, I need you in every move I make, every breath I take, every decision every feeling. I cannot do anything without you. My life is in your hands to do with it as you will. I do want to do so many things but with all these nagging little issues, it becomes pretty hard. So when I get up out of this bed, all those things will remain in the bed. I trust you to pull me out of the mire and set me on a rock." So as I pondered on what I prayed, I got out of bed. And lo and behold, all the mind torments were gone! I had peace! I still had a stiff neck (which was one of my issues) but there was no fearful thoughts attached to it - if you know what I mean. I was at peace! I knew my neck would improve in time but there was no more wondering if it was something life-threatening. Fear has a tendency to get us to believe the worse in all things, even in a splinter in our finger!! So I began walking through the house and realized I was free.
Several scriptures come to mind. Numbers 20:21 - "Let us pass, I pray thee, through thy country; we will not pass through the fields, or through the vineyards, neither will be drink of the water of the wells, we will go by the kings highway, we will not turn to the right hand nor to the left, until we have passed thy borders." I believe this is talking about them going straight though someone's land without stopping... but the Lord showed me a deeper meaning. When I decided to trust God with my "junk" that was passing through my own borders. My own borders is my own ability. There was a barrier I had to push through (border) and with God and realizing there is more than my little nagging issues, I decided to stretch forth my hand so God could lift me out. He helped me pushed past my own mind-set of inabilities and trusted in His abilities.
In Mark Jesus was talking to some of those around him calling them friends and telling them to come up higher. I realized that in order to come up higher, I needed to be counted as friend. I needed to know I was a friend of God, when we know that, He pulls us up higher. We don't even have to try. When I got out of that bed, I didn't make anything go away, all I did was confess them to God, and trusted Him to do the rest. I counted Him as my friend, my deliverer, my father who loves me. I trusted He is all those things, and I was blessed!
The other scripture is "Cast your bread upon many waters and soon it will return." What I cast out was all those nagging things. I threw them out on the massive sea. My things were pale comparison to that sea. But I cast out what I had. God took those fragments and made something awesome. He returned them and placed upon me His peace. His love covered those things, they were immersed in the sea of Love and came back to me producing peace.
The other scripture is "His ways are higher than our ways and His thoughts higher than our thoughts." I had to believe that even though it looks like things are the way they are, they really aren't. I had to remove the "lid" off my own life and allow God to be God. I've lived my life always having things figured out. How I was going to do something, how things were going to come out, what was involved, and how it was going to end. The truth was, I only deceiving myself because I never had anything figured out. Thins always came out differently than I expected. So now I'm opening up my heart and life to allow God to work the outcome. I may have an idea and go forth, but I'm not going to put a lid on it because of my own inabilities.
Not only did I get free that morning from nagging things, but I also opened up for the unexpected things of God.